Crestline

Two weeks ago we went to visit Grandma Lianna and T.C. in the mountains. The kids got to build a tree house with T.C. in their side yard. They had tons of fun. We also took our neighbor with us and he helped out too. We visited Lake Arrowhead and just hung out with each other. I always enjoy going there. It helps me to appreciate everything God made for us. It's beautiful. We are lucky to have family that lives there and doesn't mind company.

Boys! Boys! Boys!

Sometimes I look and I can't even remember what it felt like to have a little girl. I am surrounded by all these boys, it makes it a little hard to remember those Barbie and Dollie days. There's also the fact that Vivi was a "little" girl a long time ago.

I love the fact that Jordan is more of an authority figure for Landon and Justin is his playing buddy. Landon wants to be just like Justin (now that's a scary thought). When they get along and play I love to see their smiles and hear their laughter.

I get a little sad to think that one day I won't be their #1 woman. That one day someone else will be there, to listen, comfort, and kiss the boo boos. So I cherish all the kisses and hugs I can get today. I cherish playing baseball, wrestling, and tickle fights. My three princes, my three boys.

Peter Parker?

Justin has a new facination with Spiderman..a little out of the trend but that's just Justin doing his own thing. I was a bit surprised though that my son could actually climb walls! Yeah that's right climb walls! I had to take a picture so I had proof! So I guess there might be a little Spidey in all of us! Next time you see him just call him Peter Parker!

Grateful

One of my friends gave me some hand me down shoes for Jordan..and they were great. Jordan went around showing everyone in our family and even some friends his "new" shoes. He was so excited that he had cool Nikes. I appreciate his ability to be grateful for all the things we receive. In this day in age where it's all about what you have, I'm glad my soon to be 10 year old can see the value in things and be grateful.

Trying to figure it out

Yesterday I was outside at night looking at the stars just thinking of life. Along came this young man that was looking for donations by selling books. I told him I could not buy a book and sorry. So he hands me a book for free telling me that it "looked" like I really needed it. The book was titled "Searching for Happiness" All of this is amusing since this week I've been thinking....why do I think I can raise these four kids by myself? Although I have family and friends and they do have their dad's, I feel like ultimitely it's all on me. If they don't behave with their father's well then it must be something I'm doing or not doing. I have heard this twice this week.
I went and I looked at my list I have of WHY I can do this. I love my kids so much but sometimes my inner strength and confidence just flutters away. Everyday I have to tell myself why I can do this. And how important it is not to go back to full time work, even though I can feel the pinch.
I know everyone struggles with being a parent. It's not just about being a single parent. So, I will go and read my self help books that boost my confidence. And I will keep trying to figure out this whole parenting thing!

July 2008

So, it is almost the end of summer!! Can you believe it? Time goes by really fast. It's like they say the older you get the faster it goes....This is my attempt at keeping everyone posted on our lives. It makes me sad when I can't get in touch with everyone, so I figured this would be a good way to keep everyone posted on what is going on with us.
I had a friend pass away this month...she left in me an impression to make the most of everyday. I try and do that but sometimes, I get so busy in my everyday life I forget to enjoy the "moments". So, here we go no more putting things off till tomorrow! Enjoy the everyday moments and make them into memories.
Viviana turned 15 this month!!! One more year until she can start dating.....you know she has begun the countdown. Jordan is busy trying to learn how to play the guitar and playing the Wii. He has really grown up and matured. He says he is the man of the house. Justin is busy preparing for his baptism. He is really excited. Landon is finally potty trained!! He will start pre-school in September with my friend Alison. As for me, I enjoy scrapbooking when I can. I am always reorganizing everything in my house. Thinking of ways to make things easier. Just trying to stay sane as the kids keep getting older.
Well this was my first posting. I will keep updating it and hopefully learn how to load pictures on it as well.